Oh, Dave...

While cleaning my room, I found my diary from freshman/sophomore year of high school...


10:15pm --------------------- March 30, '04

Well I met this guy a couple of months ago, and he asked me out to the mall on Valentine's day. I went, and now we're going out. His name is Dave, and he's SUPER nice. He's scared of lawn gnomes and has limp wrists. He's in my French class, and he said I had an English accent and asked if I liked the Beatles or Belle & Sebastian or The Coral or Starlight Mints and tons of others. I said I'd never really listened to them, and he said I needed "musical education" and he made me a CD. He told me his name was Nick... which was sort of weird, but he says now that he never did... w/e... Every time I see him I get butterflies in my stomach and a lump in my throat. OMG. OMG. OMG. It's seriously just like the movies. He gave me my first ever kiss too!! I was totally dumb, because I totally freaked and stared at the TV for the rest of the night, but we hardly ever watch movies any more. Hehe.

3:30pm ---------------------- April 10, '04

Dave asked me to one of his shows at the Teen Center, so I am going today! Amanda's coming too. I'm excited but I was getting ready, and it took me FOREVERRRRRR to find something to wear. OMG. I'm nervous. I've been going out with him for 4 weeks and we've been seeing eachother for like 12!!!

9:25am ---------------------- April 12, '04

I don't know what I was worried about. I went, and met some of his friends. They were super nice. A lot of people knew who I was, which is funny since I've never seen them before. I guess Dave talks a lot about me. Hehe. Yesterday was our month anniversary, and he sent me an e-mail telling me that he wrote a song about me with all of our inside jokes and he thinks it's his best yet!!!! :)

7:30pm ---------------------- May 17, '04

Today was weird. I walked into school KNOWING Dave would break up with me. He never talked to me in French, even when I asked him to help me with my geometry homework and was really miserable. He walked me to art and I asked if something was wrong or I had done something. He said no, but then said, "Something's wrong and I think we should stop. It doesn't feel right anymore." I said OK and put on a brave face, and walked into class. Chelsea tells me that her and Brian went to the movies and are going out, and she's so happy, and I'm so sad, so I can't hold it in anymore! I just burst out into tears in the middle of class, and everyone was looking at me!!! Chelsea gave me a hug and cheered me up. I always thought it was SO STUPID when girls cry about their boyfriends breaking up with them in class, but I never realized how much it hurt. :( But then I got to geometry, and Dave's standing in the hallway waiting for me. He told me he made a mistake, and he'd been thinking about how much fun we had together. So, I said OK, and I don't know why, because he made me cry! He made me cry!!!! I hate how easy it is for people to push me over like that! But I'm still totally crazy about him, even though I shouldn't have done that.

2:10pm -------------------- June 5, '04

I got a letter from Dave on the first day of summer saying that he wants to break up with me. This is 10 days after he broke up with me and we got back together. He said we're too young to be in love... w/e... Well last night he sent me a text message that said I needed to call him, and he wants to talk to me. I don't know what he wants to talk to me about... maybe he wants to get back together with me!!!!!! I hope so! I called him, but no one answered, so I left a message. Hopefully he'll call really soon!

4:50pm -------------------- June 9, '04

Well I called Dave and he said that he loved me, no matter how old we were and that he wanted me back in his life!! I really do love him. I'm absolutely crazy about him, and I can't wait to see him again. I haven't seen him in 2 weeks!!! Only a couple more days until I can see him again! I can't wait!!

10:30pm ------------------ June 21, '04

Mum just laughed at me when I told her that me and Dave were back together! I can't believe her!! She says that he's not the type of boy to go out with if he changes his mind all the time. She doesn't get that we love each other! Now she says I should just hang out here with Auntie Win and Uncle Baz and then Kate, because they came to visit. I'm really scared to tell him that I can't see him, because I don't want him to think I don't like him anymore!


... And then we broke up via e-mail a month or two later, because I never plucked up the courage to call him and tell him that I had to hang out with my family. If I started a diary about my life now, would I get this much of a laugh out of it in four years time? I wonder if I'd make things out to be half as dramatic and life-altering.

Washington, Washington

A boy ate fat mike's snot for $100 last night.

A boy ate fat mike's snot for $5 following.

The show in Austin was brutal. The show in Dallas was brutal-er, but it may have just been the fact that my bruises from the previous night were being constantly slammed into the barricade. But, I left the front and even bopped around for "Bob" and "Franco Unamerican."


And...

I

can't

wait

for

Los

Angeles.

6.67 x 10^-11 m^3/s^2kg

Albert Einstein was obviously smoking crack when he came up with this curved space-time deflecting starlight in different directions crap. Seriously, how is this supposed to make any sort of sense:

Psh. Whatever, foo'.

I don't have literature class again tomorrow. I haven't read anything other than this general relativity rubbish in two weeks...

No more, "the total observed precession of mercury is 5600.73 seconds of arc per century, or about 1.5 degrees, when seen from earth, but when astronomers look at newton's description of gravity... blah blah blah." Give me a little bit of, "or whether doth my minde being crown'd with you drinke vp the monarks plague this flattery?" any day.

... please?

John, please put your scarf on

I found out the line up for Warped Tour '08, and it's quite disappointing. Bouncing souls, Pennywise, and The Vandals all are skipping over Dallas, and Against Me! and The Street Dogs are really only the bands I would like to see. And I don't think they're worth fighting the 15-year-olds who step on heads and try to crawl between your legs to get in the front.

The NOFX shows in Austin and Dallas are next Friday and Saturday, though!

My horoscope for March is also eerily accurate--thus far according to plans.

Los Angeles is quickly approaching. Hopefully we'll be able to find some nice apartments that don't cost too much money. Bad Religion is also playing in Anaheim while we're there, so that'll be a badass show, I'm sure. Also, Ill be celebrating two years with Nick while we're out there--I can't think of a much better place. (:

"beauty is truth, truth beauty" will have a spot on my back forever i think. austin seems like a nice place to get a tattoo--hopefully it won't hurt too badly!! thank you, mr. keats.

Insufferable presumption!

I woke up at 2:30 today, and I stayed in bed for hours afterwards in order to swoon over Colin Firth in "Pride & Prejudice." If my dad hadn't threatened to throw the television through the window, I suppose I would have stayed in bed a good deal longer to watch it over again. It's a good thing I did get up, because I was moved to put the Sublime poster that Nick gave to me for Christmas, and it looks mighty fine, even if I do say so myself.

She got my love, I get her drugs

With the exception of a minor eye infection, today was fun.

And Meghan can consider herself one step closer to being fully educated on sex, drugs, and rock and roll.

Like a rock. Like a planet.

I have to work in seven hours--I have to wake up in five!! I have a final in algebra on Tuesday, and I feel extremely unprepared. Hopefully it won't be too busy at work, and I'll have the chance to study.

Tonight I went to Wal-Mart with Nick armed with a list of our "first apartment essentials", and we spent nearly two hours walking through the store and marking down the prices of each item. It seems like we're probably the most organized an 18-year-old couple has ever been moving into their first apartment together on the other side of the country! Eek. More than a three hour plane ride away from mum and dad? Hopefully the chance to catch a fleeting glance at david beckham every once in a while and the opportunity to learn life science from the one and only G^2 will make things tolerable... Otherwise, I have the feeling I may be screwed.